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Tuesday, October 26, 2010 @ 5:24 AM
OTC If you're really qurios on losing weight , don't ask me , ask him ! (see photo below)  Before - (can guess how he used to look like? )  after - HAHAHAHA WILSON . Anyway , im going to OTC invterview with yongding , amy they all ! haha , i don't know how it'll be like but i really hope i can pass ~ i'll make a wish for everyone if i see 1111 okay ? hahaha my wish sure come true cause i seldom see 1111. :)  Recently , i've been to Haji Lane & i've brought a new shirt for $40 manzxzx , heart pain ! But seriously , i think its worth the buy cause it's much better than buying something so common from bugis/cotton on & it gets kinda embarrasing seeing someone in school wearing the same thing as you!  So yeah , i wear this with my wrap skirt & peacock feathered earrings ! Friday, October 15, 2010 @ 8:04 AM
UPCOMING JYP AUDITIONS I wana get my own guitar so that i can write my own emo songs too ! Anyway , JYP is coming to singapore to scout for talent in december .I will be going for auditions in december (2-5dec).I don't know if im doing the right thing but i just wanted to go with how my heart feels.I have to lose around 10kg & really improve on my dancing + vocal skills by then , really wana make miracles come true . I was looking back on all my blog posts & i realised it's all full of emo shit . & when i read back on my posts 3years ago , i realised how childish i was back then .Now that i started to be serious on dancing , it really changed my life . I know alot of people who will be reading this will think " yah , another person who's gona say that dance expresses their every emotion & all those lame cliche shit " (use to think like that )but yes all these socalled "lame cliche shit " does feel so real now that im experiencing it .When i had noone to turn to , i danced , dance made me feel so much better . Friday, October 01, 2010 @ 4:53 AM
I haven't been blogging for a long long time & now i've got some emo shitzxzxzx to say here . I just don't understand why im not good enough for everything , why is my life an epic failure ? My grades now can't even bring me anywhere .I have a fucking low GPA of 2.7 & until now im still doubting myself whether i am suitable to take Law .I don't understand why am i so stupid.I do consistent school work & i studied like fuck during the holidays ( k lah , exams week i did'nt really chiong for it,just too sick of seeing the boks already) but why are'nt i getting the results that i want ? My CCA's floorball & i am one of the worst players there . Don't fucking console me with " but you're the most hardworking" blahblahbal , i have heard enough of that shit lies .Hard working so ? hardworking does'nt mean you are good . Yah then you guys are gona say stuff like, " ohhh hardworking , now not good next time will be damn good! " cheebye , i was in deyi military band for 4years & i still can't play the trumpet well.\\ Dance . I spent so much money on renting studios & effort by practising everyday . Im not sure if im not in the CJ dance crew cause today's the day they will be calling those who can make it in. Allision & mellisa already recieved their calls 3hours ago & im preety sure not many is gona make it soooo .. by now if i make it , they should have called me already right ? right . But i've yet to recieve any calls , nothing . I know im not experiece enough but they said they were looking for potentials . I guess im not cut out for it .TPDE also same result . Actually i expected myslef to not make it into the cj dance crew but it kinda triggered the thought of fact that im not good enough for anything. studies , sports(floorball) & the arts ( dance . cheebye , my art olevels also C5) . lastly my friends & family . I don't know who i cant trust . I don't know who is fake cause people around me can be so fake that they themsleves don't even know what their true identity is .I have bestfriends & close friends but i always feel that i will trouble them .My cousin , someone who's my family member & my bestfriend does'nt seem to care as much as she use to.Yah okay stop giving me excuses like " maybe she university more busy ? & now she has a boyfriend so she has to like slipt her attention ? " yah fuck lah chee bye , now adays i tell her my problems sometimes like macham takling to a wall . Always say things like " aiya , i don't know lah , its really up to you " Knn , i ask of your opinion you tell me you "don't know " . My parents suck to the core & they find me a burden . & way fuck they themselves told me in the face okay! cheebye , aiya wana talk about them , i can write fucking two novels on this subject man . WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !? why am i so ugly , fat & yet not good in anything ? |
